I suffered with anxiety for 20 years. Please do not let this scare you. The only reason I remained in anxiety for so long was because I did not seek help.
I was scared I had some really awful mental illness and had a fear that as I had a child, I was scared he might be taken away from me.
I had my first Anxiety Fear at the age of about 17.
My first attack was horrible and left me very frightened. My whole body was shaking with fear. Was I about to have a heart attack? Was I going mad? What was going on?
I felt so much fear but was not sure what I was fearful of; it put me on alert afraid to even think! This of course made me start watching myself, my thoughts, one day led to another and I became even more fearful.
It felt like I was not here in the present, I was too aware of everything around me like an out of body experience, like I was watching myself. Everything just seemed too real or maybe unreal.
I became aware of my hands, my legs, everything, like they were not part of me. I would look at myself in the mirror and not connect with the imagine staring back at me. It was almost like I did not recognize this person. It was like someone else, I would run away scared.
On occasions while I was out and about I would suddenly get confused as to where I was and how to get home, I would lose my sense of direction (I had taken this route for years).
Reading books on anxiety I would skim through pages frantically to see if my fears were mentioned. If the book had not recognized my own specific fear I would worry this fear was exclusive to me and not one of anxiety.
When I was going through anxiety I would get insights of the real truth. I could see the real truth behind my anxiety thoughts. I could see that these anxiety thoughts were NOT, as I always knew deep down inside, my true thoughts
I had read a lot of books on anxiety. I was disappointed as each book sounded so much like the one before and the message was more or less the same in all of them: exercise, breathing techniques, relaxation, meditation, etc.
I am not saying that these techniques cannot be implemented and help with the overall anxiety. They definitely will help you relax and build strength; however for me at that moment in time I needed something more effective.
I needed immediate results! Eventually however on my road to recovery, I did implement exercise and relaxation techniques, which helped a great deal
When I did decide to get help, I went privately. Four counselors later all that money spent and time wasted I was no better; I was still fearful and filled with anxiety. I was in hell and needed a way out!
The type of counseling I received from all 4 counselors was delving into my past, talking about my childhood. They were trying to find out what had brought me to anxiety in the first place and perhaps the clue for recovery was there.
Counseling certainly helps with anxiety. However, for me at that precise moment in time I needed immediate relief from my frightening symptoms!
To me the answer, the way out is simple, when I tell people about the way I got out of anxiety and give them the explanation, they think this can not be the way out because it seems too simple.
Simple but not easy, however it does become easier as you practice. They feel the cure lies in a much deeper routed way. I think we feel to get out of anxiety we need to go through some huge rollercoaster
I have now recovered and so glad to see the world in a different and relaxed light. No more looking around checking to see if my anxiety is still with me.
I sincerely hope that my own experience will help you on your road to recovery
Author Resource:-
My Name is Bisola, married and a mother of 3 wonderful children. I suffered with anxiety for 20 years and I am now fully recovered.
http://anxietythoughts.com/
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